in the morning

"And true plain hearts do in the faces rest"

Waking in your arms
Infinitly better than not
Trust that a caress
Sweeps away any pain
Fear holds me back
You bring me forward
This scares me even more
A hand to my neck
Lips to my face
I fit into your palm
And you turn me over and over
In the morning
Everything feels right
More than alright
Glorious and cheerful
Overwhelming yet wonderful
Covered in sheets
They smell of you
Holding me tightly
Keeping me warm
What else could it be
But love

decision

it seems somewhere there is a point of decisiveness. maybe we're too scared to find it, or maybe it is just so elusive to us that we are unable to reach it.
i thought I'd found it with him, but nothing stays the same for very long. he has faded to a friend, a part of my heart but not what i thought he would be and stay.
in amongst my stormy inside i see you hiding there. not hiding by choice I'm sure, but merely hidden behind my suppressed fears and emotion.
i long to reach to you and show you how happiness spreads from my core when i see you. how the possibility of being so exposed once again scares me. he didn't do this to me, not like you do. i don't want my shield to be broken, you have the power to do that. fear keeps it there, keeps me from being completely transparent. if you could see right through me what would you think? i dread rejection. degradation further would damage me forever. however selfish i may be i could not stand it.
desire drives me to reach for you, though I'm scared. please catch me. I'm trusting you to love me as i trust myself to love you.

torn between two

my heart seems never to be whole
some to him
some to another
equal
never whole
skies ever clouded
voices quiet in a crowded soul
happiness is another complication