wonderland

perhaps i should be ecstatic right now
perhaps i should be over the moon
but somehow i feel so very guilty
and i can't help it
no matter how happy i am he still loves me
no matter how tight he holds me
i know in my heart i don't deserve to be happy
no matter how much i love him
no matter how right it feels close to him
i know i don't deserve him



but i love him...